Back in Germany

Back in Germany, I realized very fast, that having feelings again is only nice, when you are happy.
But I was sad and so the circle of drugs, alcohol and parties was starting again. Like always, only Peach was stopping me a lot of times from getting to wild. That time I was starting to do cocaine. Peach was worried like shit. Bitching all the time. Her boyfriend in that period used to have a problem with coke.
Cocaine is very dangerous. I saw a lot of girls doing everything for a line. Thanks God I never got so addicted, don't know why. Was only doing it to go out and handle all the happy people around me. During the week I went to work and when I went out during the night on a weekday I never did anything.

One night there was a party over a girls house and there I saw him. (The most dangerous, possessive, destroying love of my life - PW).