When is love turning into an obsession?
The answer I really don't know, but I wish I would.
All my life I met obsessed people again and again.
Is the world full of those sick people or is it me infecting
people with this obsession, or maybe all the woman do it in
a way and it`s normal? To me it seems sick.
I remember two friends of mine, one is still my facebook friend today and thanks god I live on the other side of the world now. The second one almost broke apart, when he saw me suffering in my bad times of life. I was doing a line of cocaine and he was crying. I was going to buy lots of "things" for some little dealers, cause I was getting the better quality and prices. I remember those one "big guy" I only had to call and he was taking my orders for coke and speed like in a supermarket. He was almost giving me everything for free. Sure the first times they tried to scare me a little and had to start to trust me, but after I was the only girl in their men`s world.
Then there was the engineer in my old work. First just a little attention, a little smile, suddenly he appeared at my second job in the disco, sitting at my bar almost every weekend. About my life he knew everything thanks to a private detective he hired and payed. At work it got worse. Every day a present, a letter, a horoscope, a painting, an invitation for Rom, Venice, Paris, Places I could choose. He was starting to work out in my studio, he was loosing weight and even started my sports.
Everybody at work was starting to understand, how much he was in love with me.
He was living in a relationship and writing to me things like: "one word from you and I am yours".
He also found out about me finance problems caused by me Ex.
One morning I found a big envelope on my table, with lots of money inside. On the envelope was written: Please only open if you are willing to accept the price.
Had a very clear idea of the price. I returned the money with a letter and asked him to stop otherwise I would leave the company. He wrote he will stop and we could both stay and work together.
But he didn't stop. In the morning I was looking out of my window....guess who was jogging along my street. In the evening his car was broken and he was asking me for a ride home. He said things like, he was falling in love with my aura. (he was very much into spiritual things).
Finally I was talking to my boss. Had no other choice. After he was giving up, but I was seeing him every day for a lot of years at work. When he finally understood there is no chance, he stayed together with his girlfriend.
The most obsessive person for sure was my Ex PW. When we lived together the was taking the time I needed to get home after work. In case I was 10 minutes late, he said things like: Who did you fuck on the way home from work. He never understood that it was only him I loved with all of my heart. Think I also was obsessed with him.
Since I was also obsessed one time in my life, does that means obsession is the normal way of loving ? ................
That time I was so young, so maybe is normal to be obsessed when you are young.
I was never after again.
Or does it means there was only one love in my life, an all destructive love.
Is love = obsession = destruction.
Now I have a person again, standing under my window. Cannot wait till it gets really cold.
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