Introducing myself

Crazy, wild, try to tame me - but don't cry if I destroy you.
Still searching the place called "Home".
On a sunny nice day I am the woman everybody likes.
On a day like today, don't try to understand me, because you don't know a shit about my life. Maybe if I trust you enough I will tell you, but you won't understand it anyways.

Sometimes I wonder how much bullshit can happen in only one life. Actually wanted to write a book about my life, but since I love blogging why not blog a little about my life and the crazy thoughts coming out of this life.

If somebody has a life close to mine and is able to understand me a little, I would be happy to get in contact with.

Please not the psychiatrist number (through with that, they only said you are very strong you can handle it yourself - and therefor they studied for years, lol. Greetings to Wiesbaden, Germany). Also not the church number (I believe in God, but lately he is to busy to help me).

Lot of times I think in Poems so don't wonder if one day you will only find a strange poem.

To at least become an idea what the life covers: Violence, drugs, love, hate, suffering of losing beloved people, seeing people breaking apart on happenings
I survived (in memory of A. my best female friends of teenager-times).

Maybe this blog will also make some young people a little bit more carefull, that would be my biggest success.

To make it clear: Today I am: not smoking, against drugs, against violence in any kind. But my hate is fighting with me every day, and some days I am afraid if I would meet the persons I was searching for so long something bad would happen.