the agreement of silence

self destroying, obsessive and wild
caught in the situation
love is gone, is it gone for real ?
maybe is only hiding behind a moments pressure.
Was it there?
it might still is.
A turn around leaving 3,5 years, possible?

Tired, this time I realised not to be the only one tired.
I saw you yesterday, sleeping with your grey skin, tired
destroyed and helpless.

The fear of loosing control, the worries about life and
love were cutting deep lines into your face.

To tired to argue. You turned around, helpless.
You still love me, behind your wall of ice.

I see you suffer, unable to help you. I am numb.
Now we have to find a way to get along with
each other.

Some words you said are burned into my heart and brain.
Think they will stay there forever.

and how it goes on........ an agreement of silence
of not hurting each other anymore until we are recovered.

Then the final decision has to be made.

But for now. Both on the ground, both k.o. The match
has to be continued. Will there be winners or only losers.